my fave picture!!!

this is my favourite picture. the main person in this picture is my beloved korean lecturer, Bhang Jiyeon (방지연) Seonsaengnim, also known as Tiara Sem. she is very beautiful and stylish. she was teaching us the korean character on the white board when the photo is secretly taken. there are four other people present in the picture, who are my part 1 korean language friends. if you look closely at the picture that is at the bottom right, it was taken on 12 july 2007 at 15:46 pm, which is about a year ago.

actually, this picture is taken by the back seater in the class, or specifically it was taken by me, myself. it was my very first class for korean language. i came a bit late that day so i sat at the back. when i came in, she was already started the lesson with the korean history. looking at her for the first time, i know im gonna like her class and also her. the class was situated in BK26, faculty of computer science(now is faculty of dentistry) at main campus, uitm shah alam. the picture was quite blurred because it was taken by using my 1.3 megapixel camera handphone. even though it is blurred, but still it is my fave pic because i put a lot of courage for taking it. im not a naughty students. i seldomly make any unnecesary thing in my class like taking pic while lecturer are teaching in front. however, that day, i feel a strong urge deep inside my heart that forcing me to take my lecturer's pic. after put some consideration, i took her pic and next i feel so nervous while waiting for the class to be over because i think she knew that im taking her picture even though i tried my best to make it less obvious. but thank god, she didnt say anything.hehe..lucky me! that's why i like her more. 선생님 사랑해요!!

Life is Hard...

i can't sleep at night,
thinking about tomorrow left me in plight,
you guys just don't know it is very hard,
for me to walk in school with no one by my side.

i never asked for it, and you know it right?
it's something that i naturally got,
without using any might.

i want a normal life,
and not living like an outcast.
i want a friend who is bright,
and not a dull, mundane and flat counterpart,
for my life is depressing enough
and wanted someone to light it up...

My Ambition

i always loved to live by the sea,
becoz the salty smell is something,
it's hard for me to explain about it,
but i know where it is,
even though being blind-folding.

whenever the wind brought me this smell,
all my memories came back to me,
as i travel through time,
i remember lots of things had happened,
even though the memories are not as clear as the sea water,
but they are the moment that i will cherish forever.

the breeze is soothing,
the water is crystal-clear and calming,
the beach sand is quickly changing,
the scenery is captivating,
the sky is always baring.

i always mesmerized with all these combination,
which never fails to increase my admiration,
and this is my ambition,
have a house by the sea and live through its perfection.

Life

my dear Spark...
do you know why the night is so dark?
becoz it can't find your light...

your smile is like the sun,
your heart is pure and divine,
how i wish you were mine,
coz you're always on my mind...

that night,
watching you from behind,
i wonder why i was so dumb?
it was u that i want..
but i cannot made up my mind that time..
perhaps i had lost my mind...

i hope you will forgive me,
for all the hard times that i give,
even though now i regret it,
wish you are happy,
coz this is what life is.

Confession...

dear my friend,
do you know why this postcard is sent?
it's because there is something that i want you to understand.
but beforehand,
look closely to the picture behind my dear friend,
it is me, you and a 'friend'..

did you still not understand?
why are you doing this to me man?
i tried to smile for the whole night back then,
음~just let me be frank...

야! she's my girlfriend, you damn!!!

Loveholic..

i walk in,
it's clean,
to breathe in.

아~i like it,
it's loveholic!
can you feel it?
it's fantastic,
nothing can describe it.

어머! i hope it doesn't sound stupid,
when i share it...


actually, the real title for this poem is '말도 안돼!' (maldo andwae!) which means 'Impossible!'.
this is because i have no idea at all. thus, it is impossible for me as i don know what to write. everything in the poem is not related. hehe..말도 안돼, 진짜! ㅎㅎㅎ

The Fasting Month...

fasting month come and go,
without a sigh we're just follow,
terawih we go,
'moreh' we swallow.

hunger, thirsty during the day,
plus all assignment to do today,
all those that we have to obey,
patiently every day by day...

i don't really have idea to do the poem. because i don't have ant better idea. but poem is rather simple than writing essay or story. heheh... anyway, this is the only poem that i can write. i tried to think of other things, but i can't. i wish i can be more creative. maybe some other time.

back to our business. just like others, i am waiting eagerly for this month to come because in the next month we will be celebrating hari raya!!heho!!it is time to collect duwet raya!!but in the meantime, there are a lot of assignment we need to do. i feel so tired. so many things to think. so many assignments to do. to many obstacle to face. and now i'm too tired to think.

My Favourite Fictional Character...

i am a realistic type of person. i mean, i prefer fictional character which is more real to life. a logic one. but it is hard to decide how my favourite fictional character is. so to make it easier, i will compare between two characteristics and choose the one that i like best.

first, round vs flat characters. i'll go for round character because it is well-developed by the author in almost every aspect. it changes through the story. so, we can see another side of the character. i don't like dull and unchanged character in a story. however, there are times when i prefer the flat character. but it must have the quality that i like. for example, in high fidelity, i quite like the character dick. he is flat character. he did not really changed throughout the story. but his shy, innocent and child-like character has attracted me to know what will happened to him later in the movie.

second, protagonist vs antagonist. of course i prefer protagonist. because it is the main character. thus, focused will be more on it. plus, protagonist usually has good look, charisma and aura. to make a long story short, protagonist has a perfect package that usually we can easily fall for it because usually created with complete quality, flawless and the greatest compared to others.

A Book to Remember...

my own early reading history. hmm... i am not quite sure. among the book that i read when i was young of course all those fairy tales like Cinderella, snow white, Rapunzel and the list goes on. that was for the sake of basic reading knowledge. i guess. plus, those stories are very famous. every child all over the world knows about them. it is a basic reading for everyone. it is a must.

however, my real reading history started when i was in form 4. it might sound a bit late. but that was the fact. i am the type of lazy person. what i mean is i am not interested in reading. that was my weakness point. though, one day, during my boarding school-days, suddenly everyone was talking about this one book. i saw the 'hot' book was passed from one hand to another until the cover was torn. strange enough. why it is so special? later on, i found out that the title of the book is 'A Walk to Remember' by Nicholas Sparks. at first, i did not give much attention to it. but day by day people who read it will start to talk about it and promote me to read. but i just ignore it because reading is not my nature. i don't like it. especially it is just for pleasure. i don't have time for that. it is not that i busy with studying. it's just... i don't like reading.hihi.. it happened almost a month. i am so sick to hear about it everyday during my school days. you know how it goes to live in limited space like that. when something came up, it will go on and on for a quite some time until people get tired of it.

so, one day, when my friend talk about it (again!), i tried to listen to it, ad to my surprise, i knew about it already because i have seen the movie version of it before. what i did not know is the movie was actually based on that romance novel. it was acted by Shane West and Mandy Moore. for me, it just an ordinary story. perhaps, it was because when i first watch the movie i didn't really focused. thus, i did not really understand and interested.

therefore, when i went home for holiday, i watch the story once again. this time, i am more focused to the story. and i think the story is very special. first, it is because the storyline is quite different compared to other stories (at the time being). secondly, of course it is because of the hero in the story. Shane West is sooo hot! what more can i say. i'm young. and the story is all about teenagers like us.sure we will easily attracted to it. thirdly, it is because i am an easily influenced person. due to many other people talk about it, i finally gave in and set in my mind that it must be a very great story since everyone like it. and the story is great indeed!

after i watch the movie for the second time, i bought the book. this is because, they say that even though the story for both the book is simpler than the movie, but it is worth to buy it. so, i bought it and read it. since then, i started to read books. and that is how my early reading history developed. until now, i have read the book three times and every time i read it, i still cry. i love the language used by the author. it is very sweet and he knows which words to use to touch the readers' heartstrings. there are other books from him that had been turned to movie as well like 'The Notebook' and 'Message in the Bottle' (he is great indeed!). since then, i started to collect all of his books. i had almost every book of his. i read them during my free time. until now, he is my favourite author. as i actually read only his books. i am a type of loyal person. when i like someone writing style, i will stick to him only. through reading from his books, i learn a lot. sometimes i even use sentences that i remember from his books in my essay.

plus, most of his books are about love stories. honestly, i prefer to read a real life story. meaning, the realistic one. i'm not sci-fi type of person that is just not me. if i read those kind of books, surely i will fall asleep within a couple of seconds. my mind just cannot accept all those illogical things. in my point of view, it is very stupid. maybe it is quite harsh for me to say that but i'm really not into it. no hard feeling please.hihi...('',)v

however, if i were not mistaken, when i start to enter Shah Alam campus for degree TESL, i found it hard for me to find free time to read. thus, gradually, i stop reading. i cannot even finish reading my literature books. let alone my favourite, Nicholas Sparks's books. so, i was actively reading only about three yearsback that is since i was in form 4 until my pre-degree. that was my early reading history. i think one of the reason why i read less now is because i have internet connection in my rent house now. most of the time i will sit in front of my laptop for hours searching for things that i like but i guess it did not really improve my reading ability.

sometimes, i tried to start to read back, but it did not work. i still remember, there are several times i borrowed some books from the library because i found them very interesting when i flip through it. however, when i got home, i forgot about it completely and ended up returning the books back without even read them. my bad. my friends also realized this bad habit of mine. i will borrow them, but will never read them. i can't help myself.

High Fidelity

1. The Movie

This movie is about a guy named Rob Gordon who runs a record store. The setting for this movie mostly circled in his record store and inside his house. He loves to talk about music and artists with his two quite weird assistants, Dick and Barry.

However, the main focused in this movie is on Rob relationship. He is always failed in his love relationship. Even though he always failed but he kept on with his life until one day he broke up with Laura. Laura is one of her lover that he treasured the most. Since that, he became aware that slowly but surely all of his girlfriends will leave him. Suddenly, he became curious to know why his girlfriends did so. Therefore, he tried to contact back all his ex-es to ask them why.

He called his first ex, Alison Ashmore and found out that she already married. Then, he met up with the second one, Penny. At this point, he finally realized that actually, he was the one who left Penny because Penny did not agree to have sex with him because they were still in high school. Then, Rob met Charlie Nicholson, his third ex-girlfriend at a dinner party after Charlie went back from Paris. The reason why Charlie left him is because she met another guy who is more great and glamorous than he is. Finally, he met with Laura and asked her the same question. Laura said that it was because he hadn’t change since they first met. And since then, their relationship became worse.

However, the turning point is when Laura’s father dead. And Laura’s mother invited him to the funeral as sign of respect. This is because Laura’s father liked him so much and did not know about their break up. On the night of the funeral, Laura and Rob made love again and afterward their relationship improved because Laura said that she finally realized that she needed someone like Rob to help her cope with the current situation.

The story ended with happy ending when Rob proposed to Laura for marriage. Laura also helped Rob managed an event which was more like a mini concert because Rob decided to create his own record label, Top 5 Records. The event was a success and Rob’s life has been better since then.

2. Difference from the common love fiction

The difference that I can see in this movie is that, I thought Rob will never find a partner in his whole life. This is because he did not seem to have luck in love relationship as all of his girlfriend will finally leave him behind. At first I thought he possessed bad omen because he would never stick with a girl for a quite long time. However, my opinion changed when the important turning point take place after Laura’s father passed away. Anyway, at first, I still think that Laura just wanted to toy with him because Ian wasn’t there when she felt so sad of losing an important person in her life. But it turned out to be a serious relationship till the end of the movie.

Besides, I thought he would end up with someone different. I mean, I did not think that he will end up with one of the girls from his past because he kept on rejected and being rejected by those girls.

3. Favourite character and reasons

When I watching the movie, I guess many will be attracted with the character of Dick. Dick is a guy who looked innocent, kind and so dorky. However, there’s not much of his characteristic that were shown in the movie. Thus, my favourite character is of course will be Rob Gordon, who is the main character for this movie. From my point of view, I think his characteristics were well developed.

First, I see him as a guy who is only interested in sex and quite immature. This is because, he was willing to dump her loyal girlfriend due to her refusal in having sex with him. But still I can’t blame solely on him. Perhaps, it was because he still young and can’t think straight on what is supposed to be his priority.

After that, he became too sure of himself. He tried for every kind of girls. However, when he met Laura, everything’s changed. He was not sure why he likes her so much. But he just can’t let her go just like the other girls beforehand. Laura really made his world go round. When Laura dumped him for Ian, he can’t accept the fact. Slowly, he came back to his sense and started to curious about the reason most of his girlfriends left him.

But later in the movie, it is shown that he became more and more understanding towards himself and people around him. He was there when Laura needed someone to cope with her situation. And I think that’s the reason why Laura fell for him again for the second time.

Plus, it is in his nature to be so sensitive on certain things like this. Sometime I found it is very interesting characteristic that most men should possess rather than being just-don’t-care and taking things not seriously. What attract me the most for his sensitive characteristic is when he cried in the rain on the funeral day. I think that was a cute side of him to act that way. He was willing to let a part of him shown rather than being ego.

Another thing that attracted me towards him is because of his ignorance. He was dying to know why every girlfriend that he had left him. The way he wanted to know about it sometimes is so obvious. For example, when Charlie mentioned that she already expected that he will be asking such question sooner or later.

4. Ultimate ending

For me, the ending supposed to be sad ending. This is because there are stagnant of movies ending with happy ending. Therefore, this story supposed to be sad. Here how it goes…

Rob will never get over Laura and Laura will stay in relationship with Ian. Rob is becoming more stressful each day. However, instead of keep asking why all his ex-es break up him, he comes to realization that he was the one to be blame. Sadly enough, he still did not change for better and live his life like he used to be. He keeps on trying to get Laura but never succeed. This is his biggest regret in his life.

Later he changed. He knows what has to be his first priority. He balances his work life and his social life. Besides, Rob and his two assistant in the record store no longer scared their customers who did not match with their music style. They became adapt and accept to all kind of music. But still, he did not have a good luck when it comes to relationship. He becomes so pathetic day by day. And keep on living that way…

Other than that, there is a focus on Barry. He is also changed when he met his ideal woman that he is not willing to let go. Sadly, the girl did not like him because he is weird and rude. Barry was trying hard to win her heart but still she refused. One day, she died in accident. Barry cannot accept the fact at first but eventually he let her go. He becomes a Father and aims to be kind to all people.

While Dick who is innocent-looking and polite guy turns to bad ones. He becomes a player because he’s so hot among girls. He never learns from Rob and Barry cases because he is on top of the world.

my new semester...

Assalamualaikum to start this blog with. actually, this is my first time to post the blog. therefore, frankly speaking, i dont have any experience doing this kind of thing. so, if it looks or sounds so 'skema', please do not teasing or mocking me, ok?

as this is a part of my assignment, hmm..what am i going to say..im not sure myself. but i think maybe it's a good start for us to use blog as a medium of learning and communication between the students or the lecturer. And perhaps more convenient compared to the old-school book. plus, we are future teachers. of course we must make ourselves used to all these kinds of stuff. i mean, IT stuff. me, myself are not so sure with the terms that i used.hehe...(sorry, im not good with this IT things). so, please and please right me when im wrong.

well, i guess that was a quite long introduction. now let's move on to the main focus for this first blog assignment.for this new semester, perhaps, just like everybody else, i have my own goal that i wanted to achieve by the end of this semester. one thing for sure, i want to improve my gpa because it dropped a little bit recently. so, i hope i will have more luck this year, have more firm determination to study, have more self-confidence, improve my speaking skills, sleep less, play less and so much more..

in this new semester, i meet lot of new faces.mmm...not really new faces. actually, same faces because we are all tesl students, but i don really know them well back then because we were from different group beforehand. meaning, we were not from the same class.therefore, i hope we will make good friends among us this sem and years to come. but still, there are some students that i quite familiar with including the lecturer.hehe..

after a week pass since the class started, our lecturer for this course, Mr. Jaferi had given us a gist of what we're going to do during this semester. therefore, i think i'll be very busy this sem bcoz the subject for this sem are quite heavy compared to the previous one. omona, i hope our lecturers will give us some mercy.hihihihihihi...plus, towards the end or in the middle of this sem, we will be fasting.it will be super duper tiring to use your brain while fasting. well, you know.. more energy is needed to digest information that we are going to learn. (excuses!excuses!excuses!)hehe..however, still, it's true! moreover, there would be several break in this sem, such as eid-ul fitri and study leave break. with lots of assignments, presentations, projects - whether as a group or individual, and also micro teaching coming soon,i can feel all those future 'burden' on my shoulder already even though they are not started yet. huhuhu...

well,i guess i better stop here or else i'll just keep on talking nonsense.haha..nway, before i stop, i just wanna say,"jal butakhamnida". literally meaning, "please guide me".