Confession...

dear my friend,
do you know why this postcard is sent?
it's because there is something that i want you to understand.
but beforehand,
look closely to the picture behind my dear friend,
it is me, you and a 'friend'..

did you still not understand?
why are you doing this to me man?
i tried to smile for the whole night back then,
음~just let me be frank...

야! she's my girlfriend, you damn!!!

Loveholic..

i walk in,
it's clean,
to breathe in.

아~i like it,
it's loveholic!
can you feel it?
it's fantastic,
nothing can describe it.

어머! i hope it doesn't sound stupid,
when i share it...


actually, the real title for this poem is '말도 안돼!' (maldo andwae!) which means 'Impossible!'.
this is because i have no idea at all. thus, it is impossible for me as i don know what to write. everything in the poem is not related. hehe..말도 안돼, 진짜! ㅎㅎㅎ

The Fasting Month...

fasting month come and go,
without a sigh we're just follow,
terawih we go,
'moreh' we swallow.

hunger, thirsty during the day,
plus all assignment to do today,
all those that we have to obey,
patiently every day by day...

i don't really have idea to do the poem. because i don't have ant better idea. but poem is rather simple than writing essay or story. heheh... anyway, this is the only poem that i can write. i tried to think of other things, but i can't. i wish i can be more creative. maybe some other time.

back to our business. just like others, i am waiting eagerly for this month to come because in the next month we will be celebrating hari raya!!heho!!it is time to collect duwet raya!!but in the meantime, there are a lot of assignment we need to do. i feel so tired. so many things to think. so many assignments to do. to many obstacle to face. and now i'm too tired to think.

My Favourite Fictional Character...

i am a realistic type of person. i mean, i prefer fictional character which is more real to life. a logic one. but it is hard to decide how my favourite fictional character is. so to make it easier, i will compare between two characteristics and choose the one that i like best.

first, round vs flat characters. i'll go for round character because it is well-developed by the author in almost every aspect. it changes through the story. so, we can see another side of the character. i don't like dull and unchanged character in a story. however, there are times when i prefer the flat character. but it must have the quality that i like. for example, in high fidelity, i quite like the character dick. he is flat character. he did not really changed throughout the story. but his shy, innocent and child-like character has attracted me to know what will happened to him later in the movie.

second, protagonist vs antagonist. of course i prefer protagonist. because it is the main character. thus, focused will be more on it. plus, protagonist usually has good look, charisma and aura. to make a long story short, protagonist has a perfect package that usually we can easily fall for it because usually created with complete quality, flawless and the greatest compared to others.

A Book to Remember...

my own early reading history. hmm... i am not quite sure. among the book that i read when i was young of course all those fairy tales like Cinderella, snow white, Rapunzel and the list goes on. that was for the sake of basic reading knowledge. i guess. plus, those stories are very famous. every child all over the world knows about them. it is a basic reading for everyone. it is a must.

however, my real reading history started when i was in form 4. it might sound a bit late. but that was the fact. i am the type of lazy person. what i mean is i am not interested in reading. that was my weakness point. though, one day, during my boarding school-days, suddenly everyone was talking about this one book. i saw the 'hot' book was passed from one hand to another until the cover was torn. strange enough. why it is so special? later on, i found out that the title of the book is 'A Walk to Remember' by Nicholas Sparks. at first, i did not give much attention to it. but day by day people who read it will start to talk about it and promote me to read. but i just ignore it because reading is not my nature. i don't like it. especially it is just for pleasure. i don't have time for that. it is not that i busy with studying. it's just... i don't like reading.hihi.. it happened almost a month. i am so sick to hear about it everyday during my school days. you know how it goes to live in limited space like that. when something came up, it will go on and on for a quite some time until people get tired of it.

so, one day, when my friend talk about it (again!), i tried to listen to it, ad to my surprise, i knew about it already because i have seen the movie version of it before. what i did not know is the movie was actually based on that romance novel. it was acted by Shane West and Mandy Moore. for me, it just an ordinary story. perhaps, it was because when i first watch the movie i didn't really focused. thus, i did not really understand and interested.

therefore, when i went home for holiday, i watch the story once again. this time, i am more focused to the story. and i think the story is very special. first, it is because the storyline is quite different compared to other stories (at the time being). secondly, of course it is because of the hero in the story. Shane West is sooo hot! what more can i say. i'm young. and the story is all about teenagers like us.sure we will easily attracted to it. thirdly, it is because i am an easily influenced person. due to many other people talk about it, i finally gave in and set in my mind that it must be a very great story since everyone like it. and the story is great indeed!

after i watch the movie for the second time, i bought the book. this is because, they say that even though the story for both the book is simpler than the movie, but it is worth to buy it. so, i bought it and read it. since then, i started to read books. and that is how my early reading history developed. until now, i have read the book three times and every time i read it, i still cry. i love the language used by the author. it is very sweet and he knows which words to use to touch the readers' heartstrings. there are other books from him that had been turned to movie as well like 'The Notebook' and 'Message in the Bottle' (he is great indeed!). since then, i started to collect all of his books. i had almost every book of his. i read them during my free time. until now, he is my favourite author. as i actually read only his books. i am a type of loyal person. when i like someone writing style, i will stick to him only. through reading from his books, i learn a lot. sometimes i even use sentences that i remember from his books in my essay.

plus, most of his books are about love stories. honestly, i prefer to read a real life story. meaning, the realistic one. i'm not sci-fi type of person that is just not me. if i read those kind of books, surely i will fall asleep within a couple of seconds. my mind just cannot accept all those illogical things. in my point of view, it is very stupid. maybe it is quite harsh for me to say that but i'm really not into it. no hard feeling please.hihi...('',)v

however, if i were not mistaken, when i start to enter Shah Alam campus for degree TESL, i found it hard for me to find free time to read. thus, gradually, i stop reading. i cannot even finish reading my literature books. let alone my favourite, Nicholas Sparks's books. so, i was actively reading only about three yearsback that is since i was in form 4 until my pre-degree. that was my early reading history. i think one of the reason why i read less now is because i have internet connection in my rent house now. most of the time i will sit in front of my laptop for hours searching for things that i like but i guess it did not really improve my reading ability.

sometimes, i tried to start to read back, but it did not work. i still remember, there are several times i borrowed some books from the library because i found them very interesting when i flip through it. however, when i got home, i forgot about it completely and ended up returning the books back without even read them. my bad. my friends also realized this bad habit of mine. i will borrow them, but will never read them. i can't help myself.