i only have myself to blame...

today is d-day...the day that i took tests for driving licence.with jpj.it's shocking.n it's sucks!!omaigat!!i cnt believe this...i started learning to drive (with psm, of cos..) in dec las year..i've been on hiatus 4 several months since i've got to pursue my study (final sem, yay! =))..i came back just recently.i arrived on 26 may, early in the wednesday mornin--5am++..on the same day, at 11am i went to psm for a couple of practice since i will have the test with jpj on 31may (that is today!). minus friday for weekend holiday n sunday..it is so short.not so many time left for me to practice.dannggg!!!i only have..wed, thurs and sat to prac b4 d-day..wat i can say here is i forgot almost completely everything.everything..

if only i had all of the money n the time in this world, i would use n rent the psm + instructors for the whole 3 days.but...

wat did they expect?wat did i expect?of coz i cannot do it.things do not run smoothly for me in these couple of weeks..my lappy is broken..then, my hp pom broken jugak..plus, my sis's lappy that i borrowed for this whole last sem pom broken jugak..now, test jpj..xlepas jugak.due2 plop tu..both dlm litar n jln raye..man, i need to do sumthin now...i neeed to change all these bad lucks into good lucks.heheh...haihhh...=(( *pray in silence*

wallp for CALL

i need link for this...haiiaahh!!!

yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is God's gift, that's why we call it the present.

~Joan Rivers~

rain, rain go away...

life like this..

this week is soooo cutely hectic.got 2 presentations.1 is done and there is one more to go-tomoro.then, i have no presentation anymore this sem. until tomoro..heho!!but for now..haizz

on purpose or not on purpose...

i juz heard an announcement.sad one.."kepada ibu bapa y kehilangan ank .sorg lelaki.berumur lebey kurng 3 tahun. berbaju hitam.sila dtg ke surau skg juga utk tuntut ank anda. sekian. terima kaseh." how come..
how come these parents forgot about their child.urgghh...hoping that they did not abandon him purposely.how cruel! life's scary sumtimes, when u least expected it..

life's a brief candle

is life really a brief candle? why it seems so long...

....

i won't say 'snoffair'.but i would say, 'it's my fault'....

hepi chinese nu year..

to all my ex-students in STAR n my only chinese friend in school, Xiong ...

Xin Nian Kuai Le
Gong Xi Fa Cai
Wan Shi Ru Yi
Zhu Li Meng En...

miss.ing

idk y but recently keep thinking of my past time fave. 1st, it's jay sean.now, esp tonite i think of cruzer. he my fave Dj in radio 4 or more well-known as traxx.fm these days.

they say, when u think of ur past, it shows that u're old.lol..but that's the fact.we're not getting younger for each ticking second.

i tried to search for any info bout him on web but to no avail.i tried to listen to traxx.fm a couple of months ago but he wasnt there..guess he no longer working there.i listened to him everynite during weekend since form 2.from 12-3 or 4am (if i were not mistaken)..i really like and try to like every  song that he played.i love his scary background music and his tagline, "remember the cruzer's rule... if you can't sleep, don't sleep!" 

i wish i can listen to him again.now, i miss him..

!@#$%&*^%$#$%^&

tonite i cant believe bout sumthin..it juz happened.i never thot that the song 'DOWN' is jay sean's song.i might sound outdated but i did hear this song las year b4 our semester break..bcoz i told my fren , deeb that the song remind me of her whenever i heard the lyrics - "even when the SKY IS FALLIN DOWN"..don know whether she remember it or not.but back to the business, i thot it was sumone else's song.i thot it's jesse mccartney's song.but now i know, im sooo frustrated..i frustrated for the fact that jay sean has dissed his indian, punjabi watever fusion style in his latest song.i cant even recognized him until i watch his vid juz now.urghh!i juz cant express my totally frustrated, depressed !@#$% feeling rite now.

i've been missing for his comeback lately, so i search for all of his famous songs back then when i was still in secondary skol..n tonite, thanks to youtube for my newfound discovery. a NEW jay sean.for me, he's forgetting his own root.i cant even hear a slightest indian fusion in his brand new style of music. for me, he is so significant for that b4.whwnever i heard a slight indian voice + hiphop, rnb music in the background , i would know fo'sho that it's jay sean's. even in my sleep.but now??

yes, i cnt blame him, mybe he juz wanna go wif the flow.dats a trend.plus, he wasnt in the limelight for quite sumtime.honestly, this song itself isnt that bad.in fact, it's a hit now!but still...im frust.damnation!

hope he will be back again with indianish song nex.i owez njoy his old songs - stolen, eyes on you, one night etc...great songs indeed.perhaps bcoz im asian, so i njoy his songs wic are fusion of indian music, bhangra n urban hiphop..his songs are very different from other hollywood diarrhea hiphop, rnb songs. mybe he shud work wif rishi rich again and not lil' wayne or other american singers for the nex project.i really, really hope this is juz to boost his popularity back.hope he wont leave his indian fusion style for good.for i know he's a trendsetter in the music industry in bringing the indian culture to the nex level.if not, i think it's hard for me to recognize him in the future.

i still remember back in my old skol days, even after for a couple of second a song started to play, i can  tell rite away wic one is his song.for me, he's soooo significant for that.i owez believe in that and i want to keep believing that way..really, really, really  hope dat he wont leave his trademark for good.

psst..i'll excuse his collab wif sean paul - do you remember coz i really adore this jamaican singer too!!he got his own style.he owez keep his jamaican slang wif him.hope jay sean will follow his suit n stay for a looong time in this game!goodluck for jay SEAN paul! best of luck in 2010!!

balek kamponnggggg!!!

today..i'm going home.e real home.back to my hometown.yayyy!!!but 4 that,i'll go to STAR 1st.need to settle sumthin wif kak leza n miss tan.then, do sum shoppin wif my sis, kak ru.meet my cousins at gombak highway n lastly we are going to konvoi to terengganu!together wif unknown others on e road.ooohh~wat a scene..i really love being stucked in jammed wif others during any festive season.it's so cool n so fun!bcoz all of us r going HOME!dats fo sho'!lol...<3

HEPI EID UL-FITR EVERYONE!!!

여러분들 사랑한다!!!우리 또 만나자, 콜???

neeed to go n kacao my ss' blogs b4 balek kampongg!heheh..

lOve Lov3 LoVe tHis soNg!!!!!!!!!

 really like this song at e moment.it stucked in my head.cant help it.esp after i watchd e mv.Dara is so cuteee in here.plus Minho is toooo HOTTT!!!damnation!they r a perfect match.i love e song,love e mv.love e casts.love e singer.love e rapper,e baddest female rapper- CL.i cant believe CL is kinda overshadowed by dara.this song n mv suits well 4 dara.this song is really sumthin!!

actually, this song is 4 cass beer cf.but who cares?when e stars r all hot,e mv is soo sweet(at e same time so sad),e song is catchy too.it's perfect.it's a fast-paced song that makes u wanna move ur body along!lol..love it!heart it!aa..one more thing i love e scene when minho gives dara e little beer cap ring..SOOOO SWEEEEETTTTTT!!!!it's simple but girls sure fall 4 this cheesy thing..i wan it too!!guess it will b a new rage n trend in korea!! <3

have u heard this song?if not, u better check this out!!it's my official ringtone now!!hotness...

credit to YG21Subs

2 ilmu: part 3

well..actually there are some of the 2 ilmu ss that i didnt mention in my previous post becoz they r oredi went to surau for tadarus, not coming to skol or not in class during the photo-snapping session on the last day.so, here they are.. taking from various activities that i did in class with them..

the one i want to talk about here is the middle-student in the pic, SHAHRUL.he is the ketua pengawas for e afternoon session. actually, he is in the pic during the las class but it's not that clear.so i post his pic here.sorry shahrul.he's an active student.he's always in e pic everytime i did any activity in the class.it's true!!n he's a very dedicated n responsible prefect.a busy man indeed.he's a big help esp for my 1st observation.well shahrul,if u read this, do u my supervisor praised me for my 1st observation bcoz of u?i told her my teaching that day was boring n dull but she said, "no.it's good.bcoz one of the ss at e back, the prefect, is willing to stay from going to his duty.that's mean he's interested in ur lesson.or myb he wanted to stay bcoz he didnt want to miss ur lesson." when i think back,ya, at that time, i was a bit frustrated when other prefects went out of my class coz my superviser was there.but u..u stayed.i remembered, i even asked, "shahrul, y u didnt go 4 ur duty?" (im a bit pissed off at that time actually) n u said, "it's ok.i can go later." honestly, im touched.n it's more touching when my superviser mentioned it to me.myb u don remember.but i do.thanx shahrul..

now, look at the far left one in the above pic.he's DICK KOON.what i remember most bout him is he has a heart problem.i knew it from my supervisor.thanx to kiren.he's e one who told my supervisor..dick koon is a sweet boi.he loves to smile (perhaps that's y i cant tell he's sick)im a bad teacher, i know.im not sensitive enuff.haihh!well,he doesnt talk much.he's a very nice boy.

these two boys are LUTFIR(L) n MUAZ.both of them quite shy.i said so bcoz they did not talk much in my class.both of them are like brothers.they r always seen together.shall i say they r twins.so close..but one thing 4 sure they r bff...they're kinda remind me of my primary frens.they r so close that they attended the same skol, same class till they're in university.that's when i last heard bout them both.sumtimes they even shared e same mark 4 e same subject.hmm..i wonder whether both of u, muaz n lutfir, ever experienced this??hmm..so nice.it's hard to see boys so close like them nowadays..

next,this is ATIKAH or eika.she's a strong girl.she can be rebellious sumtimes if she wants to.yet still she's a nice girl.understanding n matured too.plus,she's the type that 'face doesnt lie'.what i mean is, it's all written on her face..when she's angry.x satisfied.happy.feeling crazy.she's full of expression..lol.but sumtimes she's really funny.she did weird things.she's a gila-gila person.

lastly, these two on e left are AINA, n HEYMMAH.i hv mentioned bout e other two (sue yin n afza) in previous post.aina is quite blur.one thing bout her is , during my class, when i asked anything, she will try to answer it.but when i came closer n asked her to repeat, she will juz smiled n said, "no, nothing" lol..besides, she loves to fold her tudung.if u know wat i mean.but not in this pic lar.heheh..

heymmah is a very proper one.she's polite.love to talk to me if there's nothing to do in class. n even in library too!lol..she asked me sum riddles in e libry wic she found in the skol mag..hahah..

but that's not all.there r still sum of 2 ilmu ss that i didn mentioned coz i didn hv their pics..

first,it's AQILAH.i hardly ever heard her voice.i remember her coz she's a front-seater.

second one is AZMEER.ermm..he's a passive student in my class.since there are many attention seekers in my class.thus, they tend to overshadow him.wat i can say is 3monts is quite short.

next, FARHANAH.she's quiet n if im not mistaken she's sitting nex to leesa.but im not sure.coz most of 'em love to sit wherever they want.haiihh..weird class.lol :b

then, it's SAMANTHA.she's quiet too.or myb bcoz i don hv much chance to talk to her.others too.well, this class is soooo teemed with ss.haihh! one thing bout her is, she kantoi-d with me for not being in my class.at that time, im heading to female teachers' surau.i was juz finished wif 2 ilmu class. when she saw me, she's kind of trying to cover herself by talking 2 e other ss.i saw that guilty look.that's y i know.lol..but i didn say anythin to her coz she looked guilty.plus,no one wanted 2 b embarassed in front others, rite?well.. however,she's not playing truant alone.there's sumone else.i think it's li fei.sorry if im wrong.hehe..hmm..but thinking back, both of 'em went missing again in my las class.they're deskmates.it's sort of impossible if both r absent on e same day.hmm..guess they're skipping my class again.xserik2..haizz.don ever ponteng again a?b a good student..

lastly, LI FEI is e one who loves to play rubik cube in 2 ilmu.i even took her cube.heee...that's e price to pay 4 not listening to me in class.well, i'l remember her 4 that whenever i play e cube..coz i know how to play it too!puahahha! <3

that's it!!finish!all of the 47 ss of 2 ilmu..end of story!happy fastin everyone!!

it's not the end...

our post prac was supposed to finished by today..but it seems like everyone was so hyper, we managed to finish all the presentation by ytd.hurray!! even tho ytd was the las day..but still we had some assignments to do.2 more asgmts need 2 b submitted b4 this 16..*sighs* aja aja..fighting!

p/s: lol at mdm lim calling us, the trainee teachers as having verbal diarrhea coz most of us talk n talk n talk nonstop!!talking about experience in school is really....it's never-ending.that's y..lolz

post-prac...

ytd,my post-prac started.all of us gathered at e seminar room in the INTEC library. what a reunion..we've lost contact wf each other for almost 3months.there's so many stories to be shared since we're sent to different skols-in Klang, Shah Alam, Subang, KL, Gombak etc..some even shed tears while retelling the stories.all of us experienced the bittersweet memories during our practicum.but stil, we're grateful coz we're back to our fac in ONE PIECE.meaning we're survived n stil alive!lol.. :b

so ytd we were divided into 6groups.each group will discuss different topic.n it's all related to our practicum.im in group 3 n our topic is The Supervision Process: Practicum Supervisor n Mentor.we also had to dedicate a song to our beloved Ss..as 4 our group, we chose Yesterday by The Beatles.the lyrics were editted by our dedicated member, TaTie!!! we sang this song at the end of our presentation.here's the edited lyrics..dedicated to our students with love..

YESTERDAY - GROUP 3

yesterday, post-prac seemed to b so far away,

now it looks as though we're here to stay,

we cant believe we're here today.

suddenly,im not the teacher that i used 2 b,

students shadow hanging over me,

oh yesterday so far away...

why..i have 2 go

i don't know

i would have stayed, teaching is what i long...

now i long 4 yesterday...

yesterday, school was not the place we can b gay,

now i want to go to school today,

oh i believe in yesterday

why.. i have to go

i dont know

i would have to stayed, teaching is what i long..

now i long 4 yesterday...

yesterday, our kids juz dont seem that far away,

oh i want to see them now today

oh let's go back to yesterday...

(L-R) nadirah, me, jasmine, puteri, tatie n ateff..

other members r x in e pic as they r standing on

e other side :b

lots of love from all of us,

ateff (ASiS)

tatie (Subang Jaya)

me n puteri (STAR)

sya (Bukit Kuda)

jazlan (La Salle)

ain (Damansara 14)

hani (Chung Hua)

afifah n Julie(Sek. 18)

nadirah (Sek. 28)

jasmine (KISAS)

last day of skol!!! 2 ilmu : part 2

ok.now i'll cont where i stopped.this is the 2nd part for 2 ilmu..

this boy's name is VISAGAN.he's one of the Ss that i noticed when i 1st entered the class.i was quite worry bout him at 1st coz he looks soooo blur.n he loves to pretend to do my work when he actually writes nothing in his book.but i know it was bcoz he cant see my handwriting on the board.lolz..then i have to force him to go n sit at e front.coz i realized he copied my work wrongly when he submitted his work.lol.it's not like im gonna eat him if he admitted that he cant see what i wrote.but yea i know, he does not talk much in class.sumtimes i wonder wether he befriends wif others in e class or not?it's kinda weird..he's sooo silent.i think it is hard 4 me to hear him speak.i can only hear him speak when he recited his poem.ermm..i wonder wether he speak wif his friends or not.for me, he's very mysterious.juz look at his stare..scary but he looks hot here.teeheehee! siyesly!don cha think?he's got e aura.but when i show this pic to ma frens, they're kinda afraid to look at it.i call this pic as visagan's deadly stare. lolz..

n this is XIN NING n CHARISZA..another obvious bff in the class..they're owez seen together.very hardworking.they usually finished my work 1st b4 they start doing their own work,like reading novel n stuff.a good thing bout them is of cos they did not disturb my class!good Ss indeed.hahah..

this sleepy-looking boy is SYAFII.he's about to go for tadarus when i stopped him to snap his pic.heheh..he's not that talkative in ma clas.juz like his deskmate, azmeer, who is absent that day..his future dream house is so funny.it looks like a factory.dangg!!it's hillarious!

next, they're KAVIN, KEVIN n DARSHEN. i think kavin is owez tryin to cheat me in doing work.but sumtimes he kantoi wif me.lolz..he's another boy who loves to read other book-novel, comic during ma class.haih!poor me..kevin,urmm.. he's unpredictable.sumtimes he's nice, other times he misbehave wif others.boyz owez be boyz.lolz :b  darshen is a very polite guy.he loves to smile whenever i look at him.he don talk much.don do other thing either.n he's juz waiting. he's a very nice boy..

n this is AFZA.she's very kind.very polite.respectful.she's owez cheerful.the S who owez salam wif me after ma class ended..remind me of ma past...i really wanna go back to skol.but i don want to study enimo!힘들고  피곤해요..ㅎㅎㅎㅎ

this one is SUE YIN.she's different coz i found out she is the only one chinese gal sitting at this side..plus, she's kind and quiet too..when i blogging bout this clas i realized that many of 'em are quiet.but still 2 ilmu is actually a pretty noisy class.i wonder who contribute to that.hmm..but yup, i have several Ss in ma mind now.hahha!here they come....

these are BOWIE, JAREB, n JAS. at the back is KIREN.first, is bowie.he's not that troublesome 4 me.but he's really sumthin.shall i say, he's saiko?hikhikhik..coz whenever i go around him to check his work.he oredi closed his book.for he has finished doing it.he's soooo fast n smart.kinda scary.. :b  Nex, it's jareb.ohoho..this is my eye-candy of 2 ilmu!he's cute n adorable.well actually i have apple of my eyes for every class that i taught.2 ilmu, 1 ilmu n 1 maju.n they're all boys.the  term that used for my eye-candy is SUPPLEMENT.haha!im sounding like a pervert now.don blame me coz im a girl. n im straight.puahahhahahahah!!for 2 ilmu, as i've mentioned, it's jareb. i don mind saying this coz im no longer teaching there. in STAR. danngg!im being ridiculous here.ahh,juz ignore me!pooh,if jareb see this, he must be scared to death.what a nonsense teacher.lolz..

nex to jareb is jas.n omaigat!he juz cant get rid of his smug face!he's the most annoying student i ever had.but still i will owez remember him 4 his big,round eyes. hihihi..jas's kinda cute actually.juz like jareb(againnn???).but sumtimes he's too annoying + too honest?there are sum things that i wont 4get bout him.i call this type of Ss as ATTENTION SEEKERS.one more thing about jas is that when i 1st saw him, he really reminds he of the lil boy in Kuch Kuch Hota Hai, the Ranggila part.very similar, indeed.even my frens agree wif me.i guess he must have heard bout this a lot from others.am i rite??haha!so cute...another one is kiren.next.....

the three boys here are ROBIN, KIREN n JASON.let me start wif the middle one,kiren, since i've mentioned about him above. he's another ATTENTION SEEKER.when i 1st saw him, i thot he's form 5 or 6..he looks soo matured for form 2.plus, he's tall.i guess he's the tallest in the class.aite?n he's the one that i remember from the very 1st class.coz when every1 stands to greet me for the 1st day, i saw him 1st even tho he's standing at e back.i even thot he's a malay at e beginning coz he resembles my fren, afiq very much.lol..when he started to speak, i was confused.but when he introduced his name i'm confirmed he's not malay.rofl..look can be really deceiving.i owez love to tease him wif tania since i saw what robin wrote in his nilam's book about..i cant recall wether it's little mermaid or the sleeping beauty.but pliz.. don blame it all on robin.i dared to tease him coz o what i saw in kiren's nilam's book too.he put tania's name in it.it's so fishy.but kiren owez in denial.sayin that he doesnt like her,yada yada yada..blek! :b tania's hot what??my Ss are all pretty u noe!if u don confess now, other pervert boys will take her away.plus, i saw both o u dating at e main gate almost every evening.every1 noe bout it oredi.other teachers too.we're not blind u noe!wahahaha.if u really don like her, don hold her from going home,arasso??do u noe tania's mom even honked from la salle coz both o u dating for too long that one evening?xcukup lg ke jupe kt lam kls?haihh!org mude zmn skg..now im sounding like elders.eww..dowan!! enuff bout kiren.(gile pjg psl kiren.muntah org len bce.bluwek! lol :b)

let's talk about robin now.he's soooo funny!i guess he had problem remembering faces + names.one day he came to stuff room,looking clueless as owez.haha!then stopped at my desk, askin me "cikgu ajar seni a?" Nk dijadikan cerita, i was marking my Ss drawing papers at that time(i taught 1 maju for PSV). so i said "yes, y?".he held out his hand n said "cikgu kte nk bg wayar?"he smiled innocently.  i was like,"what the..what wayar?" he gave me a blur look.me too. then i remembered kak afi once told me that she teaches seni for all form 2 classes.aah~so i guess he must be thinkin im kak afi, his seni teaher.rofl..so i told him."im not ur seni teacher.im teaching u english.ur seni teacher is cik rafidah.but she's not here now"i pointed at kak afi's table.still blurred, he asked me, "where is she now?"i looked at him and paused.then i said, "maybe die ad kat bilik sukan kot." he asked again,"where's bilik sukan?" i look at him in disbelief.he's been here for almost two years.i repeat, 2 YEARS!!unless he's just tranferred here.thank God i noe where bilik sukan is even tho i've been in STAR not more than 3 months yet at e time.he's totally hillarious.i don mind he didnt remmeber ma name coz im still new there.but i feel bad for kak afi who had taught him longer than i am..but the worse incident bout his forgetfulness is when he cant even remember his frens' name even tho he faced them everyday in class.he once called heymmah as hajar!dangg!!n it's not the 1st time i heard him mistook sum1 for sum1 else.haihh..what a memory he had..lol!but that's not all bout him.he's actually a frenly boy.he loves to greet n talk wif others,but his obvious weakness is he cant remember others' name.ppuhahaha!to robin, im sorry for laughin at you.but u're so unique u noe.sumtimes, u made my day..fuuhh,robin's part is longer than kiren!i need to cut short of everythangg now.need to go to sleep nex.

e other one is jason.jason is fine n nice boy.but at first la..after that he's changed.don noe y?he started to join the backseaters.n he's not that talkative enimo.so i don noe wat else to say bout him now.

this is the last up-close pic for the day!from left to right is HUI ER, TANIA n LISA.juz like kiren, hui er resembles one of my beautiful fren, ain.hui er is a caring gal.i realized she owez tries to focus on my teaching even tho how boring it is..lol..thanx.really appreciate that.

then, it's tania a.k.a. kiren's gf.hahaha im at it again.im not busybody but im a GOSSIP GURL!!!lolz. for she was like..im malay, we call this type of gal as perempuan melayu terakhir.the type of gal that is hard to find now.what i mean is, this type of gal is soo eastern one.but what i can say bout tania is that, she is perempuan india terakhir.very soft-spoken person.very polite.nice one.no wonder kiren likes her.so kiren, wut cha waitin 4?(raising eyebrow2x..haha!) i love this.i can smell hidden love is in e air!aah~or u're couple now,uh?hihi...

lastly, it's lisa.for me she's e most outspoken malay gal in 2 ilmu.very active.i've met her in other occasion too other than in class coz we're in e same club.kelab alam sekitar..she's talkative.speak up her own mind.funny.i still remember while we're making the papier mache for owly bank, we called her as nasrul's husband n nasrul as her wife.haha..r u confused?it's ok if u don get it.but we had so much fun.

well i think that's it for now..too tired to blog..it's too long.this is the longest post i've ever posted!여러분  안녕!  많이  쉬세요.  우리  잡시다!

last day of skol!!! 2 ilmu : part 1

ytd i had 2 clas..both ma eng clas..1st, 2 ilmu class..don noe why everytime i entered this class i felt 너무 떨려요...i juz wan have fun so i decided to make them to do e drawing instead of writing.it's about their 'future dream house'. n of cos, i did it on purpose.cos i juz want to snap their pics for the las time.plus there are some of them i didnt have a chance to take pic..for others at least i have their pics during ma other activities-inetrview n poem recitation. that's why when i asked 'em to present ytd i asked joey 1st. i said she's the lucky #1.hehe..i did this on purpose of cos.then, i went to steph, brandon, shin jie, navneet, etc.

this girl is JOEY.the lucky #1 for ytd activity..pretty aight?siap pose lg tau..hehe..she said she is too shy to present.i kept on forcing her to go to e front of e clas.said that she's a prefect.she need to b brave n all.but e fact is, i was juz like her too back in ma skoldayz.i don like to talk in front of e clas.but things have to change.she needs to build her self-confidence as preparation 4 e real world in the future.i owez nervous when i have to stand n present in front of the clas.coz i don have the confidence.but being a teacher taught me to be brave n patient..

this is STEPH n BRANDON.these two love to hangout together.in the back of ma mind they are a couple.hahha..maybe not.bff i guess...they are so sweet.when i look at them, big yellow taxi's song comes into my mind.bcoz when i played e song in class n asked them to fill in e blank,they're bz singin to e song.lolz..nway, she's pretty too rite?n i love brandon's dorky smile..they're a perfect match.lalala..there are many lengluis n lengchais in ma class.hahha!there's many to come.please be prepared!haha! 부럽줘 지금? ㅋㅋㅋ...

now, it's KAREN n JOEY.. karen is one e 2 ilmu students that i first remembered becoz she's the class rep..FYI, blue vest is 4 clas rep, red vest 4 prefect n green vest 4 librarian...they're another bff in the clas..they both wrote 'i love joey' n 'i love karen' on their dream house drawing.sweet!!

these two shy guys are ARVIND(left) n JEREMY. arvind loves to do his own thang in my class.ytd he read novel when i asked them to draw.haih! n idk why other Ss love to tease him.at times they are so close n there are times they look like they'are ready 4 a fight.i remembered he looked full of hatred when one of the boys said sumthin to him..Ss nowadays are very different compared wif Ss back then.it's hard to explain.all i can do is sigh..jeremy, i think he tried to be invincible in my class.if i pinpoint to ma Ss, he will be the one to avoid my gaze.haha!  

aahh, forget to mention this one.did you realized arvind covered his face wif a face mask?that was bcoz nowadays, it's H1N1 season.there's a box of face mask on karen's desk above.i will never forget this as a had prac during H1N1 season.but i never wear mask in class.not even once!n i hope i wont be contracted wif the disease from them.i mean the skol as a whole.puahahha!

n these are JANSON(left), YRONG EAN n BOON LENG.they love to sit in cluster.one thing i love bout this pic is they look like brothers. look at their smiles esp yrong ean n boon leng.very similar to me.똑 같아!찐자..plus, all of 'em wearing specs.what i remembered most bout janson is during the interview activity, his group got MJ.but he n most of his group members don know much about MJ. poor MJ..R.I.P.  yrong ean, i pronounce his name like the spelling.so, i owez being corrected everytime i called his name.lol..he's a quiet boy.nice one..same goes to boon leng..he's quiet n polite during ma class.they are the type that i appreciate coz they did not caused much trouble in ma class..hehhe

this is HAIDA n MAGDALENE. most of e time, haida is quite quiet but there are times when she shout in clas to make them keep quiet.i was surprised at 1st. what a voice!it's loud enough to make the class quiet.but it's 2 ilmu. they wont stay quiet for a long time. they will be back to their old selves in a couple of minutes.lolz..well, wtd, they're still kids.growing-up kids.oops!is it too much to call them kids?coz they are oredi in secondary skol.they are teenagers now.but still, deep inside my heart they are juz kids.they DID act childish sometimes..lol..then, it's magdalene..i can recall she's one of the best Ss in 2 ilmu.i thot she's a quiet type of gal.but she's quite a talker esp in the library when she talked with robin..

next, these three sweet gals are HAJAR, NATASYA n LEESA. most of them are quiet.or maybe juz in ma class coz from their looks i think they are actually talkative.내가 틀렸어?나도 몰라.ㅎㅎㅎ

they are NAVNEET n LOKESHA..idk who said this but it's from one of 'em.it's funny.i asked nav, loke n shin jie to stand coz i want to snap their pic together. but one of these two boys said no coz they said it's not good lah,they don want to stand in e middle lah, yada yada yada..i was like "it's nonsense!". but deep inside my heart i couldnt believe that they believe in such thing.or perhaps it's juz their excuses..hmm..

last but not least..our SHIN JIE..she's owez trying to escape herself from doing ma work.haihh!juz like during poem activity.aigooo!at 1st she didnt want to take pic but after i told the class it was ma last day then she gave in.it's not hard pom, kn?juz smile...

freedommmmmmmmmm!!!

FINALLY!finally i've finished ma prac..garn!wat a relief..fuuh! but when i think back it was sooo short..3months..don really know wat to say.i feel everythin inside me is all mixed up already.hahah..there's a blend of sadness n joy being there.being in STAR...i juz cant believe imma TEACHER.i WAS a teacher!!puahahah!!but now... it's over.geut!긑!E.N.D.

hmm..need to stop blogging for a moment cuz ma housemate, effa keep talking bout her students..what can i do?today is the most special day for all of us, the trainee teachers.evryone is talking about his or her students.they keep praising their students.in blogs.facebook.myspace.everywhere.wherever possible!OMAIGAT!! i cant believe this.we started talking bout our last day right when we get into the car.then we had our last day celebration by 'buka puase' at Pak Li Seksyen 18(it was teemed wif people.damnation!!).there are 9 of us,the no-longer-trainee teachers(heho!) - me n zaida(STAR), effa n niza(sri istana), sya(bukit kuda), zizi, jaz, nazri n tajul(la salle).we talk n talk.look at the pics of our students.it was...beautiful.i juz cant describe it.we went home n still, we talk bout our students.everyone wanted to boast about their students.hahha..that's funny.indeed!!it's 1 o'clock in the morning..what are we doing?yup,we're still talking bout our students.even worse,i didnt even take my bath yet.this is unbelievable!finally, we're sooo tired.so thirsty.so effa n me went to kedai to buy a drink.hahah..omaigat.this is crazy!only then we stop talkin n have our bath..today's indeed the ALL-ABOUT-OUR-STUDENTS' DAY!!that's about it.

need to go youtubing.i need some entertainment.korean!!here i come...hope there's GD's perf for my eye-candy!lalalala..

p/s: tuesday nex week is our post-prac.all the trainee teachers will be gathered to shared our experience n give reflection regarding our prac.uuu~i guess there wil be another ALL-ABOUT-OUR-STUDENTS' DAY!!everyone will boast n brag bout their students.that's fo'sho!!including ME!!puhahahhahahahahhahah!

twice t0o many times...

hmm...how am i going to start this..it's kinda embarassing..but that's the fact. i cried twice last week in school.

the first one was during my seni class-1 maju, on 12 august 2009.i'm tired of giving instruction. so finally, while going to the back of the class, i cried.the forever-noisy class suddenly in a silent mode once they realized that im crying. they had no idea who made me cry.lol..i think that's the best way. so that i don have to giv them reason.but at least, they no longer make noise like always. when i said 'keep quiet', then they did.this really makes my life easier..hoho!

second time, on 14 august 2009, i cried while talking wif ma supervisor, mis azy, after the observation for 2 ilmu,during recess, right in front of the school office.IT'S PUBLIC!!!! i cant believe maself for doing it.but i cannot hold it anymore.that's waht i feel at the moment.im trying to swallow back ma tears but i cant.so, i broke down there..lots of ma students were passing us by.all of 'em didnt dare to look at me..haha!!we were supposed to have assembly for merdeka right after recess, but i spent the whole assembly time in the teacher's toilet, trying to gather up ma strength n think positive about the whole thing. 

after the assembly, i stayed in staff room, doing wut i can..when i suddenly saw Jareb n Sharul came. but they did not come to me..thank God coz i'll be clueless to respond then. i kept on writing in ma study planner while listening to ma handphone- 2ne1's pretty boy.then someone approached me.it's Goh Hui Er..one of ma students in 2 ilmu. i low the volume so that i can hear her. i saw Syarul, Kiren and Jareb came wif her. She said, "teacher, we saw u crying just now. we just want to know why are u crying?" i was like 'OMG, wut am i going to say???'..lastly, i said "nothing.it's ok. don worry" then she still tried, "no, we're just want to know why u're crying?" from her question, i know she's worried if it was because of her class that i cried. so, i replied, "no.nothing. just let bygones be bygones" i looked at the clock. it's still early before 6:40pm. so i asked them whether they had class right now n go back to their class. so that's it..i was so moved. coz i don expect them to come to me.it shows that they concern bout me..i'll keep this as memory for the rest of ma life.

i cried twice already since i stepped ma feet in STAR.n it's in the same week.aigoo...nomu changpihae!!i hope i'll be stronger after this. CL처럼 영원히 되고 싶어!!아말, 힘내!!!세상이 이렇게요..놀자!!!!!!!! TWICE.twice t0o many times.i hope that was the last time...

plus, im worried others will think that ma supervisor treat me badly for i cried while i was wif her.thinking back, i think, i'm so selfish. i didnt think of her situation. people looking at us.(of coz lor, coz i cried in public kot!!lol) others might make up their own story without knowing what's really happening. even zaida's student was asking about me coz he saw im crying.double ashame!!im sorry mis azy.but i'll try to make it up if they ask me.coz actually, im soooooooo grateful for having u as ma supervisor!mis azy, u are the best supervisor!!i can say this wif confidence!for i know im lucky to have u as ma supervisor..thanx for everything. i hope the last observation next week will be better...